UPDATED !!

Assalamualaikum,

Its been a alooooong time since i hadn't updated this blog. Probably like 2 months perhaps?
Well, actually a lot has been going through my life and i've had been in a really hard situation lately.

1. The main reason i haven't been blogging is that i had had no internet connection unless i use my father/mother's 3G data(currently doing;  sorry guys) well, thats becauseee... i've moved house! Alhamdulillah much better than my old house and much bigger (u could probably play skateboard in here; refer: exaggerating) well alhamdulillah its been a month and i've settled in really good but there was quite a disaster not so long ago but alhamdulillah :) the disaster has fade away and replaced with love <3

2. finals are coming and i'm so worried. But im gonna try my best (ceh taip je lebih en) to be number one because i've learned from the bottom. I knew what it was like to be in the last class ever and it was depressing. Everyone was different. People were much meaner and i was mentally abused there. they stole my things etc (( shud i say more )). But truly, they're much sincere friends than these modern intelligent people. because these intelligent 'friends' know how to use us. ((sobsob))

3. well there's no three i'm just mainly so lazy or in malay 'culas' to update it lol sorry.

-HR

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