PRE SPM 2017 - 1 ( Failing Studies )

salam alaykum,

it's been a long time since I'd last updated this blog.
to be frank, I was busy but not too busy. it was just merely me being the lazy person I am.

i last updated this blog on 1.7.2017 which is 8 months from today's date i guess? (1.4.2018)
and it was about my third semester final exam, which truly indicates how long I've been away as I've already finished my SPM.

well, at little recap i guess?
for my fourth semester at TGB, i was a wreck. my first exam was a wreck again with addmaths and i was barely surviving with the other subjects.

fast forward and i was already facing my SPM trials! to be honest, i wasn't that eager to ace it, because i didn't want to continue studying as fast as the January intakes!

needless to say, i obviously worked my butt off for the exam. however, i didn't meet my expectations.

why?

well, i was a young teacher for biology at school. and that probably made me feel comfortable with where i was standing with biology.


in the end, i got a fat 58 for biology and damn, 
i was devastated! 
from maintaining A every exam, to downgraded two grades!

I definitely felt as if I've shamed myself indirectly.
the saying,

fall 7 times, get up 8 times always replays in my mind

i knew i had to do better!

So I did and just prayed the best for my SPM results.

 And Alhamdulillah due to that,  I attained  good  results for my SPM which kind of surprised me, actually.

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