i thought of....
i have lots of thoughts, yes i do. i thought of whether if i took this degree in malaysia it would be easier. but would it? honestly i have gained a lot of experience here. its not always you can go out at midnight and study at a cafe and feel safe. but korea did that. i mean, korea allowed that. i'm so thankful for everything. im not really as religious or good like i had been before but everyday i pray for specific things. and i dont know why but,, i can finally see how God is answering my prayers. and that being also at the right timing. i got the news when i was calm, not in my bad state (when i felt depressed, which is usually when i'm lonely) and it didn't hurt as worse as i thought it would. i think its also because i think my saved-up tears have already been used up in the past so i'm good now. idk if i said this before but yes of course im sad and of course i cried because i should but i dont know... entahlah i really don't know anymore.
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