Stay

Salam Alaykum,
Stay?
Stay.
Sometimes it brings the content out of you.
Sometimes you feel glee of who is not.
Sometimes you are the one who couldn't stay.
Its a very melancholy subject to fathom, as we have our own reasons to stay. Indeed, it's never easy when we face the problems of staying.
If I stay
{ okay i just quoted one of the best-seller books, i know }
Sometimes by staying, it could nurture the hurt you've been suffering.
Sometimes by staying, it could mend the strain between two collapsing ties.
Irony sometimes, that staying is often related to separation, yet staying is the matter of moving on.
Whether you will stay strong to move on, or you'd rather move on by not staying.
What I'm trying to indicate is, sometimes we don't have to stay. It's our different perceptions that prevent us from doing what we favour.
I've done that, been there.
I've tried staying, strong, to move on. But clearly i cannot, which is why I'm deciding the differ. It's not because of one person, but because of what that one person can affect our future.
The past will haunt you and is dwelling everywhere if you stay. Alas, if you're strong, unlike me, you'd be a better person than your past.
But sadly, I'm not capable of doing that, I try so hard to stop myself from breaking down and being strong for others but I can't.
Its an inevitable understatement that it is unfathomable as beauty is in the eye of the beholder, or in this content, the pain is in the eye of the beholder.
There's no doubt, we'd be the person to try and make the one happy, but sometimes, its just great to just lend a shoulder to cry on.
Maybe the problem isn't to be solved now, but to be known that there is someone there for you supporting you despite the despair you have facing these problems.
Don't ever push the person to talk to you as they might just not want the problem to be solved, but rather overcome the problem so it does not happen again.
A wise person once said to me,
Its okay to be selfless sometimes, you have to be concerned about your well-being first before others, because in the end TIME is what solves your problems. And, maybe the times hasn't come yet.
-HR

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